It's Lion.

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Ok so last night I didnt eat dinner, I tired to find something but theres just, like, nothing. So this morning I ate an english muffin. Im going to go try and redo that lion thing.

I noticed Patricias tablet and decided to try it out. This is probably the fourth thing I did. The first few things I tried to do were emo people, and a chick. This is the one that came out the best and it was the last thing I did before I put the tablet away and uploaded them to Photobucket. I cant post the original because I saved it as a gif and really Im just too lazy to do that but maybe I will fix it later. Here is the finished one:



I like the face the most. It looks beautiful. I will probably edit the whole thing to use as an avatar on MSN messenger. : ) Anyway the theme I was thinking of was my new username for practically everything, besides Unfathomably Swashbuckle..... Lionflame. The Lion, which represents how I try to handle everything life throws at me, power, pride, you know..... wanting to be able to stand up to anything in my path without any fear whatsoever. The Flame, which represents the Lion carrying beauty, passion, energy and a will to keep burning no matter what happens to it. I painted it on a black background to make it look more like the spirit of something, not exactly the body or something physical. The black is also supposed to represent all the bad things that the Lion goes through, but even so, the colors burn bright. That is who I try to be, who I want to become. Thats why I picked the name. Anyway I know this isnt the best thing ever but it was the first real thing I did on a tablet in photoshop, so I think its pretty damn good for a newcomer. XD

[ Fuck everything that you are doing right now and read this journal entry. I am going to do my best to not use contractions because the apostrophe key on this laptop does not work. On the 20th, I am going to Kathy..........to the apartment of Kathy. Tatiana is coming too. Maybe Elisa. Maybe James. I do not know. We are going to go swimming. And watch movies. And 360. What kind of 360? Your choice. Peace. ]

This is pretty much whats going on. Ok so i dont know if im going to be able to graduate my senior year because i have to earn a total of 12 more credits to graduate, and plus i dont know what school im going to go to. ill really miss savannah if i leave and go back to lake highlands, plus ill get more of a chance of graduating if i stay here and go to fred moore high school. its just damn. its really overwhelming right now so i try not to think about it. ill worry about it right before school starts back up because thats just how i am. and i dont know if this is really what i want to do, like, there are people in savannah that i really care about that ill really miss if i go back to lake highlands, and i dont know if i can trust my parents to keep an apartment. i dont know anything right now so im just blowing it off. i dont care about any of it at the moment. just movies, kaylin and enjoying life. this big dresden crowning ceremony is coming up really soon, like at the end of july. theres going to be this big party and im going. ok well im going to go. talk to you tomorrow. peace.

[ hes rather idiotic for a man who says his intellect surpasses albert einstein - jakob ]

 I'm saying LG phones are ugly because they are the damned ugliest phones I have ever seen ever. I really am having an awesome day so far. I did like three things at once in my 1st period. A lab, test corrections and this other thing I don't remember. Plus I finished my screwdriver in Graphics. Here's the link.
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My friend Cameron bought the Twilight Soundtrack for me as an early Christmas present. I love it. Track 3 is my favorite. It's the song that plays in the opening credits of the movie.

 Thanksgiving break starts at 4:10 today. Funny thing is, I didn't go to school yesterday, so this is the only day I'm at school for the whole week. Pretty cool. I'm getting the new nano chromatic iPod this year.  Purple. And a couple video games. Keepin it simple. I'm really self conscious about my hair today. Plus last period judy grabbed my face and ran her hand all over it saying "you have a smear riiiiight here" and i was like bitch back off. i hate you. XD i feel mean today and i like it. i dont care if i make people mad today because we're going on break for like five days and when i come back nobody will even remember they were mad at me. thats just how it works with me. its easy to forget me. wow im so bipolar right now. i think i just really want to get to lunch so i can eat. im starving. :( you know whats really annoying? when people add letters onto everything, like "and". it's not "andd", it's "and"!! not "cooll", "COOL". and they just do it because they have nothing better to do. it gets on my nerves. well, you guys have an awesome thanksgiving. i can't wait to stuff my face with pumpkin pie. ^__^

Some Things Are Perfect

 This morning suxxord. I had a coke in the fridge and my mom drank it, and then my dad said it was my fault and that I shoulda watched it and blah blah hoo da freakin dah. And something about not being able to send any more text messages. But I don't care about any of that anymore because he said he wouldn't do that. I'm going to watch a couple of horror movies **Prom Night, The Ruins** and sip on some soda in my room after school today. Cameron let me borrow the movies. I love horror ones. We need to go grocery shopping pretty bad, so I'll probably do that too. Uh herm. Twilight movie in a couple weeks. Won't see the midnight showing but I'm going with my fledgling on the day it comes out, which is a Friday. Pretty cool. My weekend was ok. But I heard some bad things went down with Patricia. Uhh we learned some stuff in Maya today. It's not confusing. It's just complicated. XYZ axis red green and blue and click middle axis to make 3-D object in center and -?- That's all for now. Peace.

 I'll be sure to see this one way or another. It's a more-than-decent vampire movie, called "Let The Right One In". 

{ http://www.apple.com/trailers/magnolia/lettherightonein/ }

It's about a boy named Oskar meeting a twelve year old girl named Eli, and he's constantly bullied and never takes up for himself because he's too scared. But when she comes along she starts committing all these gruesome murders in his town and hides behind all of them because nobody can tell who did it, and then he finds out she's a vampire because he likes studying things like that and blah blah. The plot is interesting because, I've never seen a vampire movie in which both of the main characters are that young. But I'll try something different this time. I'll probably just see it when it comes out on DVD because it looks like something that wouldn't be in regular theaters. 

Also.

Wow, guys.

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 So. Obama won. I'm [ look at my mood today ] :)

 I don't have a lot of time, so I thought I'd make it fast. And there it is.

 So I clicked the "disturbing books" link on the front page and I was browsing some comments... when I saw that somebody had said Twilight was a disturbing book. { http://community.livejournal.com/disturbingbooks/ } I can't say I entirely agree with disturbing part, but it set me off on a rant about how boring those books really are. I don't get it sometimes. Here is pretty much what I said.

[ ....yeah I read all of them and I have to say, none of them are very good. the first one had to be the most interesting of the series, the second one was horrible, the third was ok, and the fourth was stupid in the aspect that everything seemed way too rushed, and stephenie couldn't bring herself to suck it up and go ahead and write all the sex scenes in just because it's considered a young adult series. it's a freaking book. other than that, i like the twilight series, but it seems to draw in more pop culture than it's really worth. plus yeah the whole thing about jacob imprinting on bella's baby is really disturbing. to me, there really isn't an excuse for it. he's a sick bastard with nothing better to do because he can't have bella for himself. 

Also: I'm really tired of hearing about the whole thing where Bella can't decide between Jacob and Edward being Bella's fault. Ok. Who left Bella in the beginning of New Moon? The whole reason Bella went to Jacob for comfort and for having that "space in her heart" filled was because Edward left. If he hadn't of been such a stupid pansy about the whole thing and understood that he got himself into the whole mess, and learned to actually deal with it without running away, maybe New Moon could have been an interesting book. The whole thing was Bella complaining, Bella hanging out with friends, Bella jumping off a cliff, Bella Bella Bella, until the end when Stephenie decides it's ok to throw in a "climax" where about ten new characters are actually introduced, then left the scene. stupid.

anyway my point is, the twilight series is boring after you get past the first book. you don't even need to read the other three to get into a conversation about it with one of your friends. it's just basically a bunch of plot bunnies hopping around trying to find the right area to jump into, and you're running around trying to catch them and put them in the right place. ]

If you're like me, you're reading this two times before thinking: 'Damn. That is so right.' Because Twilight was actually interesting. The rest of them were crap. Like Eclipse was ok, but New Moon just SUCKED. I only read it because at the time my apartment didn't have any electricity and I was dying of boredom and I wanted to get it over with, because even though I don't think the books are good, I love the Twilight pop culture thing going on, I loved Twilight, and I wanted to be faithful to the series. But that's basically it. 

Oh and please do the world a favor and just shut the fuck up about not wanting to see the movie because it looks stupid even though you read the book and you thought it was good. It's still Twilight, and you're probably going to regret it anyway if you don't go. Nov. 21st people. Watch the fucking movie.

-lion

 Yep. 

Holy shit.

My friend Cameron told me he saw something about it, but I didn't really listen because they usually take a lot longer to make an Underworld movie. Turns out they did, and it comes out in January. As much as I hate the subtitle, I'll still go and see it just because of two things: it's Underworld and Underworld is always badass. The second movie's storyline sucked, though. It's like something they pulled out of their pants at the last second. It's like sex with no condom. The first movie was the best. We'll have to see how this one does. 

The storyline is like... back when the lycans were slaves to the vampires. And then Lucian decides he doesn't want to take any crap anymore and he's in love with this chick Sonia who's Viktor's vampire daughter and it's forbidden for them to be in love and they go against the vampires and blah blah. When I first saw Sonia I was like... GOD Selene is buff now! But then I realized that it wasn't Selene... They have a book for the movie, not the official one but it basically talks about everything the movie deals with, except for the Selene/Michael crap they throw in the book every here and there. 

I smell french fries.

Mk well here's teh site for the trailer and... stuff. I haven't watched the entire thing yet but I'm about to. Peace. I'll update maybe this weekend. :)http://www.apple.com/trailers/sony_pictures/underworldriseofthelycans/high.html

 Tomorrow's Friday. 

I'm really hungry and lightheaded, so I'm going to use that as an excuse to stuff my face at lunch today. I can't wait to dive into a basket of ketchup-loaded fries. Mmmm. 

I watched some cool videos on Munson's Mac. This kid was showing her some short movies he made. 

I'll post again tomorrow. I don't have anything interesting to talk about other than the obvious fact that I'm seeing my fledgling tomorrow.

 I get to go to Patricia's this weekend. Damn! It's been like three weeks since I've been over there.

I touched up my project today. Added some more shadows here and there. Redid the coloring on the Dagger of Time. Looks nice. 

I can't wait for lunch. I could have eaten dinner last night but I really didn't. I just ate a couple of chicken strips. But those were good.

I really don't have anything left to talk about, so I guess I'll go now. Peace.

-Swash

 It's finished! The project I was working on in Grafix!

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Happiness is me!!!!! It actually wasn't hard at all, and it didn't even take that long. Munson's going to put them all outside on the wall next to the library so everyone's going to get to see mine! WEEEEE!!!!! I've been waiting forever for this! :DDDDDDDDDDD

 feel like doingg anythiiiiiiiiinggg

 Not going to do anything this weekend but go grocery shopping. Big fun. 

I just got back from the play. It's called A Piece of My Heart and it's about the Vietnam War. It was pretty good. I didn't get to see all of it, though. So it was only a dollar. There was this one part where they brought out some injured guys and this one guy was squirting blood all over the place. It was great.

I'm going to continue the Prince of Persia project I'm working on, now. I'll write again this weekend sometime.

-Swash

 I just got back from Patty's and I went shopping for clothes at Plato's. I got 4 new shirts and some new jeans. I bought a yellow shirt that says kawaii, cute, hugs and has teddy bears on it, a black shirt with a blue Tinkerbell on it, an off-orange shirt that has this cool black tree design thing with  a deer looking through it, and a grey and black shirt with a black band around the waist. The jeans are black and kind of long so they need to be hemmed up. But it's not really a problem....anyway I think I look pretty cute today. ^__^ I want some new boots that I can wear just any day of the year. The ones I have are winter-y. They're white and have this fluffy trim around the top. Uhmmm hermmmmm.....what else to talk about....oh yeah my mom was being really overprotective and annoying over the weekend. She was like texting me a million times a day asking me why I wasn't calling or texting her back and why I was being so "disrespectful". It was really annoying. I go out to Savannah to get away from everything happening here. It's like my second escape. She can live without me for a few days. I even told her I would contact her once a day while I was gone, and everybody still freaked out. It really pisses me off. But enough about that really don't want to talk about things like that. I guess I'm just trying to be more of an optimistic person, if that's even possible. People tell me I'm too optimistic, but there are just a lot of things that piss me off so I just act like they don't to avoid drama. But I'm trying to speak my mind more often. Somebody once told me that it's better to speak your mind even if it hurts somebody's feelings, and I don't know about that, but I guess it's better to speak your mind as long as it's appropriate. And I don't even feel seventeen anymore. I feel fifteen or fourteen, and sometimes I feel a lot older than I really am. I can't believe I'm going to be eighteen in four months. I'm growing up too fast! I wish time would slow down.....I'm still a kid on the inside. I still play too many video games and I'm still too irresponsible to be an adult. I'm not mature enough to realize I need a job to get things I need and want, and I can't get it in my head that if I don't get one I'm going to be in serious trouble. It's not like I don't understand that, I'm just too stupid to care about it right now. I know I should but I don't. I'm thinking about what I want to do on the weekends, and how I'm going to get to do them....how I'm going to get money to do them. If I had a job it wouldn't be a problem at all. I just don't know when it's going to hit me in the face. I need something to get me out there and help myself. I want to make something of myself,  I want to do something with my life, I want to be successful. Not like the rest of my family. I don't know if my mom or dad or brother ever felt that way, but now that there isn't any chance for them to be like that, I'm the only one left to prove something. Especially now that I don't have a brother anymore. I've used that to create a promise to him, that I'm going to do something to make something of myself. There's a bracelet I have that says "I Promise" on it, and I wear it sometimes to remind myself that I'm going to keep that promise for my brother, that I will do something to keep me from getting into all the things that made him what he didn't want to be. I love him and I miss him, and sometimes I feel like I don't have anyone in my biological family that will listen to me and understand me as well as he did. It's definitely a loss. It hurts really bad, but I'm healing more and more every day. I don't know what else to do but tell myself that everything will be ok in the end and that there's nothing else I CAN do but think that. I learned a long time ago that thinking negatively will result in a negative outcome. It doesn't help the situation you are in. When you think more optimisticly, it helps you get through whatever you're trying to get through. And that's just the way of it. Anyway I think I've said enough. I should get back to work. I'm doing the lineart for the Prince and he is looking HOT.