It's Lion.

VAS! vAS!! DA DA DA DA DAAAA What's up guys I got Twilight last night cause I don't know. I don't know why I didn't get New Moon. I probably should have now that I'm thinking about it, but first book's first. Uhhhh I'm going to Patricia's place this weekend...? Yeahhhh Aleks is going over there too I think... or so he said... o___O But it's not like I'll get to really hang out with him or anything
So yeah we're getting the power on today I think
Anyway I have no more to say! Bye now

PSHH

We're getting our electricity today or tomorrow but until then, my dad said he'd take me to borders to get New Moon...which is...uhh...something I said I'd read for a long time now. I really don't care if Edward is barely in it... I still have to read it lol.
We're starting a new project in here tomorrow. It's another Brochure. Blech. I hate Brochures. -____-
I need to find out how to do the Knights of The Nine in Oblivion!!!!! Oh God that sounded.....nasty.
I'm going to write that down now so I'll have something to do in Oblivion later.....

 

Procrastination.

who wants to come over to MY place
lol jk
don't come over there's nothing to do but sit and talk
which can get boring
theres a 7-11 literally fifty to one hundred steps from my place but what fun is that oooh slurpee omg what fun
im going to go home to my apartment with no electricity STILL i cannot stay there during the weekend with no electricity i will literally, no kidding, DIE. so. i might just go to my memas place and chill and play my 360 there, she doesnt have internet so this is the last big update i'll make for 3 or 4 days
oh yeah sydney cut my hair short in 2nd period, we sat in the corner and used the teacher's scissors it was crazy fun. but i need to even it out and cut it a bit shorter when i get to my mema's. i need a shower and to straighten it too. now that i think about it i cant wait to go over somewhere to someone's house with electricity, i am growing depressed i am so bored at home, all i can do is sleep and read, and i have nothing new to read, i almost finished soldier X but the ending quarter of the book gets annoying and repetitive so i just threw it in the box with the rest of my books, if i wasnt so irritated that i have nothing to do i probably would read it. my mom is not going to want me to stay with my dad at my mema's place but i could really care less. she's not the one that has to put up with nothing to do but sitting and staring at the wall. and my 360 needs playing
OH yeah almost forgot, i beat the main questline for shivering isles. it was way easier than i expected and way disappointing but it was still a lot of fun. i keep forgetting its just an expansion pack and nothing can be perfect, and they still did a really good job on it. they got the look and feel great [i know, im late on this] and the butterflies were pretty. i swear i saw my fledgling drool lol
was funny
ok that being said, i was so scared at the ending portion of the main questline because jygallag comes after you and he's just so HUGE with his order claymore looking thing, but its not called that... but the ground literally shakes when he comes after you, and he's faster than the gatekeeper. if he hits you, you lose a LOT of health [heal OFTEN] but once you figure out a strategy its not that hard, and when you beat him he gives you this way long speech about how he gets trapped in the body of a stupid lunatic blah blah woe is me blah... you know, the -pity me- speech. then, you become a Daedric Prince... which is fucking rad... the achievement thing blinks on the screen and says "madgod" i was like O________________________________O fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck
I'm still really pissed off about the whole "you can't sit on the duke's throne even though you're the duke!" shit
when or if you become the duke of mania it wont let you sit on your own throne in the banquet room or...whatever
i think you can still sit on syl's throne though -scratches head-
the staff of Sheogorath is an utter disappointment
all it does is "voice of sheogorath, 70 feet for (???) seconds" and it just freezes everyone in your path for 70 secs and thats all, but you can control the weather rofl. like i casted the "manipulate weather" spell and it started raining. i guess legolas was sad. oh uhh i was rofling at this one thing -- there's a guy in bliss, he's homeless, and he walks around talking about sweet rolls and how amazing they are and you can persuade him with sweet rolls. funny cause one time i was at a bar and said to myself "im gonna need these sweet rolls one day" and guess what, i did. moral learned. when you talk to the guy he says things normally then goes "sa-WEEEET rooooll!!" you have no idea how hard i was laughing... i kept going back and trying to get him to say it but then i stopped cause i thought i was gonna die... yeah... so from now on when i accomplish something or find something likable i will say that. oh and he gives you his pants. o_____O

tata

Dishes.
ughhhhh so friggin hungry

Well, good times.

It's 6th period now, and I thought I'd share some recent events.

I moved. I live in an apartment now. It's much smaller than what I'm used to but I'm pretty much already over it, since it doesn't matter much because I'm usually just hanging around in my room doing something or another anyway. I already set up my whole room. I really don't like my computer in the hallway like that. I'm going to put it in my room. We don't have electricity yet, unless my mom finally called about it today. My dad brought an extension cord and left one end in my room connected to my surge protector, and the other end plugged into the outlet in the laundry room just a little ways off from our back door. I stayed up really early waiting for my mom to get home last night, I'd thought it was so quiet outside I might have gotten Left Behind. It's not a beaten up place, it's actually pretty nice, and the only real creepy things about it are the bathroom, the closets and this weird vent in my room that looks like it was from one of the gas chambers at Auschwitz.

I feel accomplished. I haven't done this much work in a long time.

I also lost some weight. I look and feel a lot better, and I'm starting to grow an HOURGLASS FORM?

Oh, today, if the electricity still hasn't decided to work, I thought I'd take a walk down Greenville and look around at the shops and stuff. I'm getting a job soon and there are a ton of things in walking distance. I haven't even been down the road yet, not even past 7-11. My mom said I should go with Kathy but we hardly see each other anymore and what are the odds of her coming over anyway?

Well there isn't much more to talk about. I created a few spells in Oblivion...

• Aleks' Drunken German Rage [ a little more powerful than your basic fireball, but I fucked up and set it to touch instead of target ]
• Kaylin's Lucky Charms [ a stronger charm ]
• Frosty's Male PMS [ a more hard-hitting frost spell ]
• Trojan Man! [ resist disease 20% for 21 secs. on self ]

And, I enchanted a couple of weapons, just an ebony shortsword with shock damage and I forget the other one... I'll remember later... I got a beautiful black and silver bow called "Ruin's Edge" from Syl in Sheogorath's Palace [ yup I have Shivering Isles and Knights of The Nine mods now ] but the attack is only 9 so I have to use arrows with at least an attack of 10 or more or it really won't do much to whatever I'm trying to kill. It just matches my robes. >.<

Ok well that's pretty much it. I'm gonna go do something else now. I really want some ice cream... or a soda...

if I ever have to do something like this again in my life I am going to freak

There's a quest the Gray Fox gives you, the one about retrieving the arrow of extrication, and it's supposed to go a little something like this:

1. Wait for Amusei to find you in the Imperial City.
2. Go to the house of Malintus Ancrus in Chorrol.
3. Go to Bravil and talk to the beggars.
4. Find Fathis's hidden chamber.
5. Go through the secret chamber and dungeon.
6. Enter Fathis' Tower.
7. Steal the Arrow of Extrication.
8. Go back to Ancrus's house in Chorrol and give the arrowhead to The Gray Fox.

Bravil Wizard's Grotto and the subsequent Bravil Wizard's Lair are unusual dungeons, where you will encounter Conjurers, Dremora, and possibly Daedric creatures. You will encounter a good many locked chests and doors you'll have to pick, so bring plenty of lockpicks.

As you explore you will eventually find a door that says it needs a key to be unlocked. There is in fact no key available to open this door. Instead the way through is an underwater passage. To the south of that door there is a water-filled cavern containing a very deep shaft. About ten feet down (only part of the way down) there is a tunnel on the north side of the shaft. The tunnel is located immediately below a rock "bridge" in the middle of the shaft that connects the north and south walls, and is at the same vertical level where several rays of light are clearly visible shining through the water. A slaughterfish usually guards the entrance to the tunnel. This tunnel leads around a corner then emerges out of the water on the other side of the locked door.

If you instead dive to the bottom of the deep shaft you will find an easter egg, namely a Giant Slaughterfish. This slaughterfish is leveled and can be a tough fight, especially since it is underwater. In reward, there is some nice loot. In one of the rooms with Conjurers there is a Potion of Sea (Water Breathing) which can help with getting down to the slaughterfish, although you will probably need more than just the one potion; an item with a water breathing enchantment (such as the helm Fin Gleam) is strongly recommended.

There is a passageway off the Giant Slaughterfish area that leads to a door that opens into the bottom of the Niben Bay near Bravil. The trap door has a treasure chest next to it and is located approximately straight down from the "a" in "Niben Bay" on the world map (map). This trap door can also be used as an entrance to Bravil Wizard's Grotto, if you want to bypass the first part of this dungeon.

[edit] Fathis Aren's Tower

Once you get inside the fort area, make your way to the top of the tower where you should find Fathis Aren. Rob his chest and anything else you want (but be prepared for the consequences). There are several ways you can do this. If Fathis attacks you, you may be able to lure him into falling to his death by going to the other side of the tower. For a powerful sorcerer he doesn't always look where he's going (this is also the fastest and easiest option for Mages Guild members avoiding penalty, see below). Alternatively, Fathis Aren may accept a yield if attacking and not restart fighting you. This may provide an easy way to complete the quest without killing him. You could try taking everything from his chests before yielding. Yet another possibility is that after all the minions in the tower are defeated, Fathis Aren may not move from his desk. You can speak to him and he should not attack you. If you then walk up to the chest and retrieve the arrow, Fathis should not move from his alchemy. If you need a place to hide and heal during the fight with the many minions in the tower, run all the way up the stairs and jump across the gap (you may need a high acrobatics level ie. 60+) Or, you can try taking 2 invisibility potions, use one to sneak past Fathis and loot the chest and use the other immediately after exiting the chest, if done quick enough Fathis will never even see you.

If you are in the Mages Guild: If you are caught killing Fathis or stealing from the tower you are going to be kicked out of the guild. If you are in the upper echelon of ranks in the Mages Guild, it may stop Fathis from attacking you. The easy solution is simply not to attack him first. If he attacks you, you can run away from him. In order to get out of the fort area, you need to take the arrowhead and Aren's key from his chest. You will not be penalized for taking things from this chest. Once you have the arrow and key to the front gate, you can head back down the stairs and exit the tower. Then, just run along the road until a guard or other person appears and they will attack Fathis for you, allowing you to complete the mission without being kicked out of the Mages Guild. Another method is to strike Fathis once with your sword and he will briefly disappear. At that point you can steal the key and arrow head from the chest without getting caught for stealing and without being kicked out of the Mages Guild. If you find yourself getting caught over and over again, you can make a quick escape by using Aren's Tower Key to exit the tower through the main door. He will be waiting for you, but you can lose him by making a beeline for the Nibenay Bay and swimming until you hear the music change. At this point you should be able to fast travel to a safe location. An alternative for Mages Guild members, as mentioned above, is to cause Fathis to fall to the ground below while attacking you - he will fall to his death and his corpse and chest can be looted without penalty. This is especially useful to players who wish to take the Apprentice Calcinator he possesses.

Afterwards, make your way outside the tower (through the main door) and return to the Gray Fox who will reward you with 500 gold and promote you to Master Thief. He will also tell you that you can now use Fathis Ules, who is the best fence in the guild, as your fence. However, if you have chosen to return the blade in the Sins of the Father quest, Fathis won't talk to you anymore because you didn't take the blade to him.

[end official walkthrough section HERE. if anyone else is interested, here's the site http://www.uesp.net/wiki/Oblivion:Arrow_of_Extrication]

NOW that you've heard plenty about what is supposed to happen, I'll tell you what REALLY happened.
It couldn't have been EASIER.
So as soon as I get into the castle, some guard runs up to me out of nowhere and arrest me even when I'm not in a restricted area [tbc]

Scheisse I've been gone for so long

Oblivion Updates

Arch Mage/Mages Guild
[dont really get that, how is the arch mage higher than the master wizard? oh well]

Kicked out of fighters guild
[need 20 bear pelts]

and thats pretty much it
until later when i can do a better update at home

 

i wrote a paper about love since that was the theme for english 2 and everyone loved it... i guess it was really unique. i liked it too
i am still very excited for this afternoon, now i have 4 or 5 more hours
its going to be really...
fun
(lol)

uhhh my german friend aleks mostly, even though he doesn't eat like the anorexic cotton ball he is, my dad, my mom, my brother

One of my favorite actors is dead. I'm sure you've heard the news. Here's a nice picture of a memorial for him.
http://i29.tinypic.com/2a6uqsl.png
Heath Ledger was really an amazing actor. I respect him so much to this day. Hopefully he'll find peace wherever he is now.
R.I.P., Heath Ledger
1979 - 2008

This is a poem inspired by The Elder Scrolls 4: Oblivion. I've named it "The Black Arrow" for two reasons: 1; that is my Grand Champion name in the Arena and 2; I think it fits me as an Assassin/Top ranked Listener in the Dark Brotherhood.
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The Black Arrow


The quiver is full
All sights are trained on my prey
The hood veils my face.

So like a whisper
I move swiftly and surely
Through the dark of night.

I am trained to kill
One whiff or by sight of you
You're as good as dead.

Now please, don't tarry
And please, get out of my way
I've business to do.

Each life sets bounty
Every fool I took under my wing
Never saw it coming.

A master of blend
My actions are nocturnal
And professional.

To better suit me
I don my high Black Hand Robes
And you won't see me.

With just one movement
The point is at your forehead
You heed my command.

As if taught at birth
It is all second nature
As I let the arrow loose.

I feel no remorse
No incapacitation
Just a sense of peace.

Now, my task is done
And I shall go back again
To receive my reward.

Akatosh prevails.

Sorry. I got lazy. I'm sitting here waiting on an idea of what to do. Don't feel like talking much. Too lazy.

This is a special poem. It is nothing like my others. It is the meaning I place behind every cup of cocoa, and why I like it so much. Enjoy.
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Cocoa

Little marshmallows
Poured into hot chocolate
Bobbing up and down.

Sitting here alone
I rest my chin on my palms
I let out a sigh.

Another Christmas
Without all accounted for
Just my mom and me.

A stab in the heart
Brings me back to reality
We're the only ones.

Dad is with Casey
They're over at their own house
Waiting for me.

Hate leaving my mom
Sadness without them both
It didn't work out.

I sit with her now
As we sip from our glasses
Occasionally glancing up.

We blame the weather
For not speaking to each other
And continue to drink.

"So, are you ready?"
She stands up and so do I
Time to open gifts.

I look at the room
Imagining Casey and daddy
Sitting on the couch with her.

This vision is so short
As I solemnly sit down
And open presents.

She seems so lost now
Preoccupied with guilt
That I know isn't there.

My eyes widen
As I open a new game
And I am happy.

Instinctively
I look back to show daddy
But he isn't there.

Mother just smiles
And I remember
It's just me and her.

Going further back
Into deeper nooks of my mind
Dad and Casey are here.

They are sitting here
With my mother on the couch
We are all happy.

The microwave rings
Daddy gets up and leaves
And comes back with my cup.

Little marshmallows
Poured into hot chocolate
Bobbing up and down.

Wow. Well, it snowed a lot in Grand Prairie when I was little. Me, my dad, and my brother would run outside and have snowball fights and make snowmen and snow-angels while my mom would sit on the porch drinking coffee and just laughing at us, back when she didn't care as much about her hair, only taking part in family activities. And then we'd go in and she would make my brother and I blueberry pancakes and hot cocoa with little marshmallows almost every morning, and if she didn't, my dad would make homemade waffles with the waffle maker. And then I would run down to my best friend Micah's house and play outside there. On every Christmas eve, the whole family would get together in the living room and eat candy canes and sugar cookies and coffee cake and cinnamon rolls, drinking cocoa and everyone would get to open 1 present before Christmas the next morning. One Christmas Eve, I remember shaking every box until I found a game boy game, and then my dad would tell me not to open it, but I would and then he'd feel bad because I wouldn't get to play it, so he let me open my game boy color as well and I'd sit up all night playing my first Pokemon game until I'd gotten all 8 badges and was already completely through with it. My brother usually got $100 in his stocking every year until he turned twenty, when he moved out with his girlfriend. And after we opened our 1 present, we would sit around the fire and roast marshmallows while watching some cheesy Christmas programs like Rudolph or Frosty. When it hit around 2 PM, my dad and my brother would climb up onto the roof and stomp around on it to make it seem like Santa had arrived, and then my mom would crack open my bedroom door to see if I was awake, and if she caught me she would send me back to sleep. Sometimes I would creep into the living room and find my dad putting a teddy bear of some sort under the tree. That was my thing -- teddy bears. Until one year I finally got my favorite one, who I call Teddy. I know, really original. One time my dad got super pissed or something because I saw him putting a giant teddy bear near the tree and he saw me, I knew one reason was because he didn't want me seeing my presents, but I also knew he didn't want me thinking Santa didn't exist. So the year after that, he dressed up as Santa (or maybe it was my brother) and when I came in there and saw him I freaked and ran back to my room. Christmas was always great when I was living there. My dad, my mom and my brother would sit around and watch me open all of my presents, and I had a LOT, and then they would ask me what everything was as if I didn't already know once I saw it, just to see the happiness on my face. Then, everyone else would open theirs and we'd pull things out of our stockings. Pouring it on the floor was boring, you could see everything immediately. Pulling each thing out without looking was more fun. After Christmas together, we would all go to my Mema's house (still a tradition today) and open presents there with a lot of my other relatives. My Mema is 80 years old today and she still shops for everyone, and by everyone, I mean a lot of people. I don't know if she shops alone but I know she goes into Hot Topic about every Christmas and one time she came out and said "There's some weirdo people in there." But they probably think she's just awesome. Now that I look back on everything, I realize somewhere along the line I took it all for granted, because now I will never spend Christmas with my whole family together ever again. Gone are the days of my father, my brother and my mother sitting in the same room watching me open my gifts, asking me what everything is, or playing and making snow men in the front yard. Now, I have to spend Christmas with my mom and my grandma here in this house, then go see my dad and my brother, who then go with me to see my Mema. Now I have one more place to visit over Christmas break, which is my cousin Patricia's. It depresses me every Christmas that I can no longer sit in the same living room with my mom and my dad and my brother. If I could have had one more Christmas just like that, I wouldn't care about any of the gifts, or the food, or the cocoa, or the stupid holiday shows. Just one more Christmas morning, altogether and accounted for, just like the good times, with no conflict or pain. But I know it will never happen again. Sometimes it hurts me a little when I wake up and walk into the living room without seeing my dad or my brother, or a tree with presents with special labels like "from Santa" even though I know they were from my family. Sometimes it hurts a lot. I just hope people with whole, unbroken families cherish and appreciate what they have, because you don't realize what you've got until it's gone.

"Teardrops on the fire, watch as the eagle flies."

[lion]

I'm annoyed now. I just got bitched at by my mom some more. This time, she was trying to make me pity her after she said she would give me $100 for Christmas, but she can't realize that I already do. She's asking me to go out of my way to make sure everything around the house is perfect, and she doesn't even give a complete fuck about anything I'm going through right now. Well, she might. She said to stop giving her an attitude, but in all honesty, I'm not even giving her one. I'm just tired/irritated/angry/confused/depressed/incredibly pissed off/worried and stressed all at once and I wish she would understand that I don't mean to snap at her. I've tried telling her a million times but she doesn't care, she still wants me to be perfect and do everything perfect. I'm tired. I do everything I can around here. I take care of nanny, I do all my chores, I go to the store with my own money when I have to, I'm careful with my spending and I only use my money when I have to. I'm tired of getting blamed for everything and having every single thing pinned on me and I'm sick of getting yelled at and lectured for each tiny accident I make. My mother has GOT to realize she's not the only one that's under a lot of pressure around here. She needs to get off my fucking case. It's driving me insane. Just today, she got pissed off at me for giving nanny the phone because someone wanted to talk to her. What the fuck is that?!?!?!?!?! And then I told her I was under a lot of stress too and you know what she said you won't even believe this. "Oh please you don't even know what stress is. I'm way more stressed than you." Does anyone else see some kind of desperation to be noticed there or something? Maybe just being SELF-CENTERED?!?!?!?!?! God!!!!! I wish she could just understand everything I'm going through at the complete FUCKING moment and MAYBE THE WORLD WOULD STOP BEING SUCH A BITCH FOR ONE FUCKING SECOND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NO FUCKING WONDER I DON'T HAVE THE INSPIRATION TO DO ANYTHING ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK ALL OF YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm happy to say I'm finally caught up with most of my schoolwork. These things include: paying attention in all of my classes mostly geometry and chemistry, doing what I needed to do at home with homework and such, organizing my folders/dividers, finishing my Nengajo (new year's) card for Japanese, filling out every single requirement for covering each chapter section in world history (pretty much just reading the whole section, writing 2 pages of cornell notes, doing five to six focus questions, all of the IDs, all the vocabulary and usually a graphic organizer at some point in time, usually our teacher will give us a compare/contrast chart between two things and it'll have about nine sections and then we'll have to write a report on it) so yeah sometimes world history can get just a little overwhelming but not too much as long as you don't slack off, and then there's english 2 that's the one thing I'm still behind in, and then there's chemistry which is usually a huge bitch with nine inch heels and a point to me but Ms. Hanna our teacher is really understanding that we have six other subjects and tons of work to take care of and yes even I, who does her homework at school most of time, have fallen prey to having to do it at home. She didn't even give me a head case about turning in my interactive notebook, and when I reminded her that she should look at it so I can have a grade for it, I told her not everything was in it and she said it was ok so long as she knew I'd been putting things in it. She gave me an A+ for a notebook not even completely filled out for what we've done so far in unit 5. She's really nice. And I actually paid a good amount of attention in her class today, if you asked me to tell you six different types of elemental reactions having to do with temperature, collision and concentration I could definitely give you some thorough explanations. It's such a relief that I'm so caught up now, for a while I thought I could care less whether my grades went down or not. Now that I've done everything I have to do, I know I'm going to pass everything regardless if I make a sixty here and there, because they give you so many things, you really can't fail a class that gives you thirty or forty assignments in one set of six weeks when all you get is three or four failing grades. It doesn't matter so long as it doesn't pop up as a 60 on my report card. I hate making my mom think I'm not doing well at something at school. Japanese is coming along pretty well. We have to memorize a poem that starts out going "Dare kani aitakte, nani kani aitakte" (sadly don't remember anymore after that but that's ok because we don't have to recite it to Shichijo Sensei until the end of the next semester.

Smelling hot cocoa sitting in a cup on the counter.

Watching Rudolph or Frosty on TV.

Tasting bits of snow on my tongue as it falls out of the sky.

Feeling the icy crunch under my boots as I chase after all four of my dogs.

Listening to the old classic Christmas songs on the radio after my mom and dad picked me up from school.